Friday 27th june

i started my period this morning, my life officially sucks again!! why does this have to keep happening to me, i have done everything right and know i will be a good mother why can't i be given the chance to prove that!! i must have been a really horrible evil person in my past life to be punished like this, i feel like the universe is against me today and just want to be alone, my partner blames his self for us still not being pregnant.

i literally feel like my heart has been ripped out  of me, i know i got myself too excited but i had pregnancy symptoms.....am i ever going to be a mother 

feeling depressed and let down 

Thursday 26th june

Period now 10 days late!!! i woke up at 3am and was sick again i think it might be nerves for going to the doctors today.

went to the doctors and done a pee test and that was negative still, they took some blood and are sending it to hexham, i can call hexham in the morning for my results

feeling scared and happy

Wednesday 25th june

period still not here

was sick this morning after eating sugar puffs 


feeling extremely excited now

Tuesday 24th june

period still not here! so i sat and wrote symptoms i had

1. fatigue, i don't know if it is from getting my self excited or if i am working too much but i am tired all the time.
2. moody, now this can just be a totally normal thing for me but my partner said he thought i was more moody lately
3. hunger, i am so hungry right now all i want to do is eat ( could be from boredom )
4. sore nipples, now this is something new, i have had sore breasts before but never nipples, they are super sensitive, they even hurt when my bra is touching them.
5. darkened nipples, my nipples have gone from pinky to a browny colour
6. butterfly feeling in lower stomach, no idea what this is never had it before.
7. twinges in my lower stomach, not anything like period cramps
8. my lower stomach feels swollen and not at all sore

feeling extremely excited but telling myself to not get excited

Monday 23rd june

Period is still late. i rang my doctor at hexham and he advised me to repeat my test on thursday morning and to get a blood test done to check my hcg levels if i am still not on my period by then.


feeling excited

Sunday 22nd june

my period is still late. done another test and still negative, im going to call the doctors on monday morning and ask his advice.


feeling happy and nervous

Saturday 21st june

My period is still late and i done another test this morning and it is still negative.


feeling worried now but its my best friends wedding today so going to stay positive and keep it to the back of my mind